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Lately my life has been a train wreck. I have a hard time attempting to accomplish anything I put my mind to. Although I have my B.S. in Marketing, I feel the need to take Flash Design classes just to have a grip on what I am doing. Currently I am employed at a Sponsored Links firm in Chicago. I like my job, but not enough to call it a career . I am concerned that because I am shy and keep to myself that I am hurting my position at my company. When I first heard about S.E.O., I was in college and never even thought that I would be in the field one day.

Yet here I am, two years later working as what was supposed to be a market analyst, but more along the lines of a secretary. After graduation I had high hopes of becoming something, but S.E.O. was not one of them. I know that you have to put your time in before you can actually get into a real position, but that was what my other job was for. Every now and then, when I have a bad day at work, I ask myself why I quit my other job. Working for a Sponsored Links is fine but I had something going for me at my previous position . I know that I am complaining, and I don’t have a right to . I guess I just never imagined myself working with S.E.O. following the previous work in finance that I did.

Maybe one of these days I’ll actually realize that I have a voice and use it to my advantage. I would say all the things on my mind . I do not have a problem utilizing Sponsored Links as a 9 to 5 career. I do have a problem with people treating me like I am twelve . There is one person in particular whom bothers me, smiling at me condescendingly all the time. I understand that if this is my biggest problem then I am a lucky girl. The thing is, it’s not . My boyfriend, whom also worked in S.E.O. as well, have been having many more arguments than we used to, which is still not a lot. He is always mad at me for not living up to my dreams . He understands because he worked in Web Development too. He quit when he was offered a position as an engineer at a firm downtown . I long to put my two weeks in at the S.E.O. company.

One day I will figure out what it is exactly that I want to do . I am terrified that one day I will just pick up and leave everything, without any regrets, and also leaving my boyfriend behind. I am somewhat of a free spirit . I really have to figure out my next career move, and if it is going to involve S.E.O. or Web Development.